I often work my way through people’s older posts. It seems a shame to me that having put in all the hard work they hardly get acknowledged. Which, whether you admit it or not, is the reason for the published piece in the first place. This is an old piece. It got two comments. Before it hit my blog it was was a professionally published piece. I’ve re-read it. When I re-read old pieces I sometimes cringe. It’s not as good as it seemed the first time round. Is it immodest to say that I still like this piece? Yes it is, but too bad. I hope it gets new readers.

Many years ago, an elderly woman collared me in the street and ‘coochie-cooed’ my toddler son and baby boy. ‘Enjoy them while you can, dear,’ she said. ‘They’re all grown up before you know it.’

If I’d had a decent brain cell left that wasn’t sleep deprived I would have responded with a tart, ‘Can’t come around too soon for me, lady”. Leaky breasts and children who squealed like whistling kettles in the night did not gel with my experience of other people’s well-fed, smiling children.

By the time I was knee-deep in nappies and anklebiters, it was clear to me that motherhood was like belonging to the mafia. You can never leave it. It may leave you – in fact it usually does after a couple of decades – but you can never ditch the job description.

American psychologist Marie Hartwell-Walker says that leaving home isn’t an event, but rather a process of them growing up and us letting go. She doesn’t know the half of it. What about us growing up when they let go? We’ve done our duty. We’ve loved our children unconditionally, protected them in their innocence and taught them our values by example. If we’ve done a good job we’ve produced a marked improvement on the earlier model; we’ve prepared them for life after us. But where do we go next?

Children give you sleepless nights, the terrible twos, and the importuning thirty-twos…when they give you more sleepless nights, heartburn and a chance to give up your Saturday nights all over again.

Hindsight is a wonderful thing. I see that now. That woman was right. Before you can say Empty Nest Syndrome (ENS), you have a spare room or two to fill.

I had this fantasy in those long-ago days crouched on the toilet seat, with a copy of Cleo and a pair of earmuffs to block out the entreaties from the other side of the door. Like Audrey Hepburn in My Fair Lady, all I wanted was ‘a room somewhere’. I wanted a child-free den of my own, a rocking chair and an antique writing desk. I wanted a room lined with books where I could sit, read and eat chocolates all day long. The thing about fantasies is that once you can have them they lose their potency.

My whole house was a den. What I wanted post-ENS was a life of my own. But ENS found me unprepared. I’d been given the glad hand and a box of chocolates for work well done. I was free as a bird with nothing to do with my time. Free as a bird in its empty nest. We just love to borrow avian analogies, but no self-respecting bird lets its children hang around for decades the way that we dumb humans do. The chicks get tossed out at what mum perceives to be the most appropriate moment and then she gets on with life.

Go forth old woman and start afresh. That was my idea. Do some brain-cell aerobics and take on a writing course. It was great. I enjoyed the stimulation of learning something that wasn’t child related and even contributed opinions to class discussions that didn’t begin with, ‘You’ll never guess what the children did yesterday’. I only wish I’d done it earlier.

Childbirth was a lark – a breeze compared to emerging from the child-rearing decades rusting away in suburbia. I was a mature age student. My classmates had the confidence, I had the wrinkles. I had the advantage of life experience, they had the benefit of time. Sounds equitable, but they could always get the life experience whereas time was running out for me.

If I’d had to do it again, I’d have prepared for the ENS two minutes after saying ‘I do’.

Feminist Gloria Steinem said, ‘There is no such thing as integrating women equally into the economy as it exists…Not until the men are as equal inside the house as women are outside it.’ With those words ringing in their ears, women have trained their sons so that women can reap the benefits. So take advantage. There are a growing number of fathers who are brilliant at parenting. You see them everywhere on the weekends, confidently feeding their toddlers babycinos, riding their helmeted brood through sub urban streets and guiding their children’s reading material at the local library.

TAFE courses are still affordable. Some tertiary institutions have child care centres tailored to cater to the mature-aged student so you and your children can simultaneously encounter social and educational experiences. Do a university subject to see how you like it. You’ve got a couple of decades to play with. By the time you’re free you will have several degrees under your belt and a new career.

Take up bungee jumping, learn conversational French or the gentle art of flower arranging. Be a good role model for your children. They will thank you for it someday. Whatever you want to be when your children grow up, do whatever it takes to prepare for it so that middle age doesn’t find you wandering the streets with nothing better to do than to accost parents strolling innocently along with their children.

12 thoughts on “Empty Nest Syndrome

    • So nice of you to say. And thanks for following When I wrote that piece, I had no idea that I would be reinstated. I help out with grandchildren these days. 🙂

  1. And yet we chose to have kids! As a very hands-on, late starter Dad, I wonder where the last 20 yrs have gone. Some of those times I’d like back, others no. What comes next is a bit of a mystery. An interesting mystery I hope Mary. It’s a good point about preparing for the ENS. A bit like preparing for retirement. I have still have two at home, they are in their late teens.

    • That photo of me holding my two boys – I thought it was going to last forever. Do you think it was being a late starter that made you hands on, Bruce? That’s the best kind of parent to be. Not enough of it happening these days.

      • My wife had a rough time with the having kids bit, Mary. A lot of time in hospital and bad health for years, after the last one born.
        I had a new one, a 2yr old and 5 yr old, Plenty of nappy changes before this time as well. Had to leave work.
        A week or two of the full monty for any Dad would let them know what things are really like and give them enough to back up the Mum if she gets sick etc.

      • I have sons and grandsons, Bruce and happen to think that given half the chance, men are great at parenting. Your children and wife are lucky to have you.

      • Thanks Mary. I’m sure there are lots of guys out there with a similar tale to tell, doing what has to be done. Sometimes I think I managed pretty well, other times I know I didn’t. You know the story, it can be a pretty tough job. I’ve yet to experience the full empty nest syndrome of which you write.

      • There are a lot more guys out there, Bruce, than there were in my dad’s day, for instance. No man comes home these days and asks, ‘what’s for dinner.’
        As an ENS graduate, I’ll let you in on a secret. Parenting being a hands on, learn how you go proposition,, you tend to stumble along doing your best. Then you cross your fingers. But I suspect that you already know this. Enjoy those darlings that are still at home.

  2. Did I comment last time you published? It’s obvious that this was written from experience, I seriously relate. I’ve never wished my chicks to return and smirk inside as they experience their own joys of motherhood

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